Possible Combinations

It has been 15 days since the biopsy.

Two weeks and one day.

At least four more weeks to go. [Insert loud scream here]

I was okay at first, keeping myself busy settling back into life at home and getting us back into our daily routine but I found myself very emotional this past weekend and I wonder if it's because I know at the back of my mind that I'm anxious about what results we may get.

I've considered all of the possibilities too.

Possibility #1: two normals! Yippeee!! Yay!! Awesome! This is the best outcome we could hope for and in this case, we would transfer back both and take our 85% chance of success. This one was the no brainer.

Possibility #2: two abnormals. Boo hissy boo. This would be the worst outcome and I will be pretty devestated if this is what comes back to us. I don't know what we would do if this was the case. We could try to scrape together the $$ for another cycle but then that would mean living our lives on hold for even longer since we would be in the cycling holding pattern.

Possiblity #3: one normal, one no result. This is still pretty good too IMO. We would know we have at least one normal so that's a 65% chance which is much higher than the 25% chance Dr. Sch initially gave us. Who knows with the no result embryo too...could be fine too so this option is pretty good too.

Possibility #4: two no results. Talk about a shades of grey option but the possibility exists that this may happen so I've been chewing on this one. My DH and I have talked about doing another banking cycle in the hope of getting one normal in the bunch if something like this happens. But then again, we need some more $$ to do this choice and this puts us back into a cycling holding pattern.

I've also been trying to decide whether to take on a short term contract to earn some $$ to pay for another cycle just in case we want to do this or whether to just hang in until we get the results. I have my name out there with two head hunters but with the economy the way that it is, I've heard nasty rumours that most job postings are fake so they can still get the candidates to come in but then they don't really have any real jobs. I figure if something works out than great but if it doesn't, maybe I should sit it out until I hear back about the test results. See how we've come full circle? Everything comes back to waiting for the test results.

Four more weeks to go...